A Meditation on Love
As much as I seem like a misanthropic loner on here at times — I’m actually a very loving person. WHAT!? YOU DON”T BELIEVE ME!?!?!? …I kid.
So when it comes to love I have to admit I’m quite old-fashioned - yet a history of rejection and bittersweet relationships has also left me somewhat jaded towards the idea of being in a relationship with someone. That’s not to say I don’t want one, of course I do, but I’m a bit more hesitant of chasing after a woman these days. Love is a lot of work. I’m perfectly content with just going with the flow and seeing what falls into my lap (innuendo much?) for the moment.
The way I think of love is like this: Love is a loyalty. In it you give up a part of your own freedom to accommodate the needs and feelings of someone else. And that goes both ways. It’s very much a contract of trust, and that is likely why we have institutions such as marriage, and relationship status’ on facebook.
I’m very much conflicted you see, because I’d love to have someone to trust and to be loyal too, but at the same time I also value my own independence and lack of responsibility or commitment that comes with it. Finding someone who energizes you and makes you want to be responsible and caring is a very great gift indeed.
Stefan Sidelnick is everything and nothing at once. Sometimes he is a poet, other times a comedian, but mostly he is lazy and will post whatever he feels like.
