W o r d J u n k

Since I was very young…

I’ve felt the most important gift you can give someone was your love. As I’ve matured and have become victim to rejection and defeat part of that notion became much more abstract to me. Was love a gift you could give someone? Does just saying you love someone the same as knowing you love someone? How do you know? This was something that confused me and and tormented me, even to the point of paranoia that I was taking people and relationships for granted (I suppose I still am to an extent) but I think it comes down to acceptance. If you just accept you love someone you don’t have an excuse to hate them. In the pain and bitterness of my rejection my mind reasoned that since I could not love someone with all my heart, I could at least hate them with it instead. My emotions were so strong that I simply could not be satisfied with doing nothing - I had to transfer those emotions negatively toward the person who did not accept my love.

You must accept that you love someone, better yet, you must accept that you just love. Then you can hate, or feel angry, but let it subside and know that you only feel this way because you care so much. All sadness and hatred stems from love. When we are deprived love we lash out or submit to failure and depression. That is why love is the greatest gift you can give someone and why you must always keep it their on reserve for someone because you never know when they may need it some day. They may not need your love now, but they will certainly never require you wrath.